it's lovee;

.Friday, November 13, 2009 ' 8:40 PM Y

fyp interim and personal presentation are finally over.
it's just a short rest though.

how i wish tml will be the start of my holiday.
how i wish i could suddenly strike 4D / toto so that i dont have to work tml.
how i wish i can go travel with my frens again.

I HATE 13TH EVERY MONTH.
fucking tired.

loved*-you're all i ever wanted

.Thursday, October 15, 2009 ' 8:47 PM Y

going to Jurong Island everyday during my holiday is alr SB HECTIC.
now they want me to submit AT LEAST A THOUSAND WORDS OF REPORT.

oh god. at first i thought it was easy. just a thousand....
but that SAMPLE REPORT a guy gave was fucking 7k.

ok. so i got how much stuffs in need to include.

AND. THE DEADLINE IS FUCKING TUESDAY.
i got to know it just yesterday.
fri,sat,sun working.
NNB! I'M DEAD.

THANKS AH, Dr Wang!

loved*-you're all i ever wanted

.Tuesday, October 13, 2009 ' 7:51 PM Y

it's another round.
i'm not joking.
it's another round of ~~talking~~ confronting.

1) I choose to leave things as is it doesn't mean that i heck about this friendship.
can you first get this clear?
dont you think that sometimes it good to stay in this way?
would you rather talk on the msn chatting and laughing in the conversation
or
would you rather meet up and shut up and got no idea what to talk about.

i dont understand why only meeting up can keeps the friendship going?
and i've explain to you, but if u just cant understand den forget it.

2) I dont know why, every few months, we'll have this "trying" thing to talk and say about and eventually end up with either, i'm not trying, or something else.

all of a sudden, msn pop up, asking to meet up, and i rejected.
and THIS CONFRONTATION COMES AGAIN not once, not twice.

we're here trying to say who put more effort into this friendship to keep it going.
WHEN I FEEL THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH US except WE COULDNT MEET UP.
just as simple as that.

i know. time can be arranged.
but i'm sorry. i'm not like you.

monday
sch starts at 915 and ends at 430
back home, god damn tired.
rest awhile, continue with school work, preparing him for PSLE, housework
okay it's 10pm.

tuesday
sch starts at 945 ends at 5pm.
back home, same routine as monday

wednesday
540 wake up, go to jurong island
ends at 540pm
back home, same routine again.

thurday
sch starts at 945 ends at 5pm.
continue with fyp stuffs which sometimes take more than what u can imagine.
fine. housework and sch work.

friday
sch starts at 945 ends at 5pm
work starts at 6pm ends at 10pm
back home, sch work, house work.
it's already 12am.

saturday
1pm to 10pm work.
back home, house work
it's alr 12am

sunday
10am start work to 7pm.
back home, sometimes dine with family.
*the only day we could have time tog*
go to my grandmother house.
it's 10pm again.
and that explains why i'm super tired on monday.

LETS put those time preparation time and wake up time aside.
i'm just stating out the time my sch starts and end.
NOT the time that i wake up.

i seriously got no time. holidays? all spent in jurong island, every single day.
sometimes i'm thinking, why i'm not born a silver spoon in the mouth.
if i had more allowance/money, i wouldnt need to work.
and i can meet up with u all you want.

you ask my boyfriend, how many days do i see him a week.
he'll tell u 3.
fri, sat and sun.
because these are the days we work together.
we dont even have time for movies. only dinner at 802

i dont have flexible time tables like you people do.
u'll nv know how much time i spent in sch and work rather on friends and bf.
u dont know how it feels when sch is occupying the whole of your daylight time.

i can dont work. but tell me $6 per day.
can u survive?

i'm not telling u a lie.
when u asked me, i'm really busy with my stuffs.
u dont know how my FYP is killing me, how time is pressing me
you really dont know.

3) whats with all the assumptions and guesses?

you always feel that i'm blocking, i heck about the friendship.
but how many of your guesses and assumptions are right / proven?
u always guess that i told someone blahblahblah
den suddenly, choose to tok to me about some alien topic which i dont even know what happen.
and yes, u doubt me, u don trust me when i really did nothing at all.

so how does it feels? u love being accused?
u love being asked and confronted by a friend about some issue that you really did nothing abt?
this didnt happen once.

but to me, once is definitly enough.
yes, i was sad, i was thinking, am i really someone not trust worthy at all?
i didnt think about it until it hits me the 2nd time.

and i totally thinks that, yes. so..... i see.
there's no trust in us.
the most basic principle in everything.

ask yourself. how many times u guess about what i think, what i feels, what i did....
that;s the amount of times i'm hurt.

ask yourself, are you too sensitive?

what problems are we facing? i dont even know, cause i dont see a problem
i dont deny i dont try in our friendship anymore, because i cant even see the basics there.
again, GUESS that i broadcast. well, broadcast wad?
negative things.. cant even remember till we TALK again on "trying".
wads burden? u're just a friend and i treat all friends with same amt of helps and care.
so do u mean, everyone's a burden?

many of the things, i dont really know where u hear it from
and it leads me to alot of confusion because i really donno whats going on.
i'm serious.

how long have i not meet dee.
and dee is still like a good friend to me.
just a call asking how's life now, just a 5 mins chat.
i can feel him there. and though we keep saying we'll meet.
but till now, we still didnt.
it's half a year since i last met him. ( last last IT fair)
and we're still going on strong.

u get my idea?

loved*-you're all i ever wanted

.Thursday, September 17, 2009 ' 8:43 PM Y

LONG AWAITTTEEDDD~~
finally, all resized and uploaded! WOOHOO!

Leaving Singapore To Island Of Beauty!!

waiting for flight

she look like those ppl in Taiwan sprees helping to advertise the Tees / shorts

boardingggggg ; still not excited yet.

REACHED LIAO REACHED LIAO.

i love this pic of jasmine. cause my canon rocks!

berjaya lankawi

our "call 4"; the shuttle that takes us from room to around the hotel.
we totally love it la. because it's like. once you call, it'll reached super fast, and we're like VIP.
usually only the 2 of us on the shuttle.

from our resort room down to wait for shuttle!

our room; we're staying in like.......some kind of natural rainforest feeling.

prepare to go outtt. spaaaa! W00HOOOOO

ok. i got it. i know. sb act. PEARL U DIAM!

RAINBOW BANGLES! <3

jas MOST CHIOEST SEXY CANDID PIC!

SPA LIAO

jacuzzi

i like this aso. LOLLL.. cause all i take one ma.
u take me, i take u.
super sad, cause only the 2 of us!

while jacuzzi -ing, u can see monkeys around you.

may not be as near as u think, but you can really feel that nature is ard you!

if only we can stay here! SUPER SEAVIEW. walau. shiok.

lost vietnamnese girl pleading me to help her take one picture in the middle of busy KUAH town
where DFS begins!

from room balcony

CABLE CAR! yesss ah! love love love

super sian. cause we have to share the cable car with 3 dunno wad country ppl.
but they talk super loud......................... i think hong kong ba. speaking cantonese?

YAY! WE'RE HALF WAY TO THE TOP!!!

it's not the gorgeous view yet. but it's alr amazing

and this jasmine trying to scare me. by fucking standing in the cable car which causes it to like...... tilting left and right.

view from Cable car

we reached the top, but going to THE MOST CHIO PLACE.
where all the wind blows like nobody business
and we totally cant take good pic.

and jasmine looks happy here, cause she thinks it's gonna be easy way down

and i totally dun feel like moving at all.

OK. HERE IS IT.
if u happen to visit Langkawi, i think. u'll nv forget this place once you visit.
it's really.................. no words can describe the scenery la!
ver ybig wind there and u can even hear it so loudly beside ur ears.
look way down, and it's the beautiful beach and sea.
AND THE BRIDGE WILL SHAKE!

love this. though i look like got ba gei.

SB BRAVE. i dont dare to touch it.

UNDERWATER WORLD!

i tink this penguin resembles theeeeeee..........................ice age is it?

dunno la. the one with long long eye brow one.

CANON loves. kind of sea urchin i guess?

i dunno wad is this, but just look nice. at first

super cute smiling stingray!

jas's pet

beautiful jellyfish

and his gf.
zzz. it's the reflection of his la.

socks look alike creature!

CROCODILE FARM!
we totally don dare to stand too near though it's fence up
but............ the fence not v. high aso lor. -.-

crocs show ; brush teeth. eee.

crocs show; kissing. ARRGH. SB SCARED.

jas says the man hand's shaking.

all of a sudden in crocs farm, come some photo taking corner. wanna laugh.

FEEDING TIME! they uses whistle to call all the crocs to gather at the front.
and i think the man super brave la.
only take a stick and the crocs food with him.
imagine him getting attack. OMFG

SNATCHING.
and jas is super scared when it suddenly rained heavily.
cause she says if the bridge broke, we gonna be the crocs' lunch

reached SEVEN wells / waterfall

can imagine the long road and hill ahead.

AND THE WEATHER IS SUPER HOT!

so we ice cream-ed (:

and i got fucking tired after climbing so many many many stairs la.
it's like 3 STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN U KNOW?
it's like fucking nv ending.

YAYNESS! WATERFALL

the water is like super cooling.
and u feel relax at there la.
that was when i suddenly feels that i've fell in love with nature.

OK. I ALMOST GET WASHED AWAY.

because of the stupid water that makes u so dizzy when u trying to concentrate on which rock to step on.

and the rock is SUPER SLIPPERY!

she cant decide which route to take to come back after looking at how i almost fall.

gorgeous, totally.

AND WANNA GET MORE? climb higher. to the fucking 7 wells.
but i suggest to u ppl if u all wanna go...................... u all can stop at waterfall and dont go further up.
it's kinda disappointing and it's a long way up.

this is the knnccb,moron 7 wells that make me almost die while climbing.
and it's not really as nice as the waterfall.

WHOO. MY FLOWER, from doris where she got it for us during her bali trip.

jasmine LOVE this classic smile.

last day alr! :( down to the beach.

CLEAR WATER. not as clear as u may think.
because of the soil colour, which is not like white coloured sand, so the water cant be seen as clear as it is.

but it's really something when u compare to Pasir Ris park's water. zzz

LOVE THIS PIC OF JAS TOO!

act clever lor. wanna take pic when water is at knee length.
and all the sea water kena part of my shorts.

playing with water!

on the fine sand, and clear water.

i wanna swim like a FISH! cannot meh?!

I LIKE THIS ASO! but ah. this makes...............................................

my shorts stuck with sand and water. because that pic must take from low angle.
SO... I SQUAT DOWN.
and thanks to the wave.
so. ya.

it's really clear. and amazingly relaxing there.

look look look. can even see small fish swimming.

different parts of the sea, have warm and cold water! cool right?!

JASMINE GAN.
WANNA TAKE THE SEASHELL BACK HOME.
AND SHE'S KILLING THE CORALS.
I HATE HER.
so she put it back. HAHAHAHAHA

that's our resort.

pretty beach

last one before we pack and go :(

we may not have played and have fun there,
but our motive was met.
we just wanted to have some relax life.
a slower pace comparing to the busy SG life.
it makes me doesnt wan to leave.

the sceneries that i can never forget.

LANGKAWI, it's really a beauty.

loved*-you're all i ever wanted

.Sunday, September 13, 2009 ' 8:38 PM Y

so many about today.
today miruki will be back from Sydney.
so yea. my cordon bleu will be HERE. w00hoo!!
ok it's my mum's one.

today. i'm depressed.
really.

other than that,
today, i've grown.
grown to be stronger.
stronger than ever.

those words killed me before it killed you.
those pains hurt me before it hurt you.

loved*-you're all i ever wanted

.Friday, September 11, 2009 ' 9:23 PM Y

oh well. FYP is finally over.
BUT.
FYP for 2nd semester alr started.
so i feel ................................................. SIGHDUCK AGAIN.

i mean.. there are always problems among different teams.
so................... we're not exception.
not looking forward to it, but looking forward to the end of ALL THIS.

jurong island started for us and there's only A WEEK of break for our long (5 weeks) holiday.
USUAL TIME, 830 to 540.

so ya. faint. super faint.
kill all FYPs

LANGKAWI.
ok. i'm back from my short break in langkawi.
i tell u. it's pretty.
really.

loved*-you're all i ever wanted

.Wednesday, August 19, 2009 ' 7:21 PM Y

CANT CONCENTRATE.
TOTALLY.
first time all of us are so serious abt UTs.

loved*-you're all i ever wanted